Mathias laughs at that, genuinely laughs and for the first time he thinks maybe this might not be just about trying to deal with his grief. All his life, he's dealt with things on his own, pressed them down, kept them silent, and this doesn't have to be any different. If he allows himself, he can actually have a good time here.

As soon as he thinks it, he feels a little guilty, but he thinks he'll always feel guilty about feeling good.

Taking an oar and beginning to row out toward Neil, he says, "Let's go, then. I don't want to be shark bait."